Father woke up today at 6:45AM \u201cexhausted\u201d.\u00a0 As he was getting dressed, he said, \u201cI think it\u2019s gotta shit \u2013 and I think it\u2019s shitting now.\u201d\u00a0 Yes, he was filling his nappy.\u00a0 I helped him to the washroom.\u00a0 After his BM, he was quite dirty.\u00a0 I put him on his seat in the shower and tried my best to shower him, but he couldn\u2019t lean forward or to the side or stand up, even a little, so I\u2019ll let the HC workers do that.<\/p>\n
He wet the bed quite a bit this time.\u00a0 His nappy was not only full of poop but very heavy with urine as well.\u00a0 I\u2019d like to find a way to go shopping today to get that condom catheter.<\/p>\n
The homecare nurses came.\u00a0 I asked about going shopping.\u00a0 One worker suggested we might qualify for respite<\/em> \u2013 a break (from 1 to 8 hours) so as to go shopping, rest, close one\u2019s eyes, etc.\u00a0 I\u2019ll phone today.<\/p>\n \u201cYou got any of that funny stuff?\u201d\u00a0 He\u2019s looking for whiskey.\u00a0 I told him that he\u2019ll have some after the last nurse leaves this evening.\u00a0 \u2026\u00a0 Then I went a little bit farther.\u00a0 I told him, \u201cYou know what my childhood was like?\u00a0 Me sitting at home while you\u2019re getting drunk with your friends in the shop.\u00a0 That\u2019s what my childhood was like.\u00a0 And I\u2019ll be damned if I\u2019m gonna put up with that shit now.\u00a0 I\u2019m sorry if you don\u2019t like that or you don\u2019t like me.\u00a0 I can leave if you like.\u00a0 Don\u2019t matter to me.\u201d<\/p>\n Quietness.<\/p>\n It\u2019s ten o\u2019clock in the fucking morning.\u00a0 Seriously?<\/p>\n Watching the news on TV, he tries to use the cordless phone to turn on and off the TV and change the volume.\u00a0 The dial tone comes on speakerphone, but he cannot figure out why it\u2019s not working.\u00a0 \u201cHow do you make it stop?\u201d\u00a0 \u201cYou mean, \u2018turn it off\u2019?\u201d I ask him.\u00a0 \u201cThat\u2019s what people say \u2013 \u2018turn off\u2019 \u2013 not \u2018make it stop\u2019.\u201d\u00a0 He snaps to a little bit and figures out what\u2019s going on.\u00a0 \u201cHow do I turn it off?\u201d\u00a0 \u201cUse the TV remote.\u201d\u00a0 \u201cThe clicker<\/em>?\u201d\u00a0 \u201cYup, that\u2019s the one.\u201d\u00a0 <sigh><\/p>\n He\u2019s in bed now.\u00a0 8:45PM.\u00a0 He forgot to take his jeans off.\u00a0 I had to pull them off him.\u00a0 Then he had to pee.\u00a0 Then he forgot to pull up his nappy.\u00a0 But he\u2019s down for the night again.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Father woke up today at 6:45AM \u201cexhausted\u201d.\u00a0 As he was getting dressed, he said, \u201cI think it\u2019s gotta shit \u2013 and I think it\u2019s shitting now.\u201d\u00a0 Yes, he was filling his nappy.\u00a0 I helped him to the washroom.\u00a0 After his BM, he was quite dirty.\u00a0 I put him on his seat in the shower and … <\/p>\n